down & down!!

here i am again blogging.im feeling so down dunno y.tml im gg meet dear tgt w baby le but y am i feeling so down and fan nw?i reali dunno.haiz.i dunno y am i feeling this way can amyway tell me y?i miss dear so much.cuz i can onli see him when he is on leave or onli on sat haiz.y so pathetic.reali miss him haiz.i shld feel happy that dear will alwasy wan meet me when he can.but wheneva he ask me meet him i will alwasy say im tired v lazy or wateva but actually i yearn to meet him de.;i wan hugs frm him kisses frm him.cuz he is my dear one.i reali miss him.thats all i noe nw in my mind.hw i wish nw at this moment he is here w me.i jus feel like crying out loud.nt cuz he dun love me but cuz i miss him too much.y my family cant let him stay here w me and baby y?i reali cant stand the days where we haf to b separated.G0d pls dun test my petience anymore pls help me to get thru evryting i reali need G0d.i love u dear and miss u.w/0 u i feel so lost.haiz..