lost!!

i feel v wounded v lost v sad and empty nw.y of all person is u?who nv understnad me nv wan to listen and always pick on my weak point.isit u find me a burden to yr life?u ask yrself.everytime u will tink its my fault that i cause everyting.u make me feel this way.i wan to feel yr love again but y i cant feel wats holding me!! i reali dunno.i tried so hard but all u noe is telling me that cuz i alwasy SHOUT!! u tink i wan to scold shout at u everytime isit?haf u eva tink??? or ask why i haf became liddat.hav u eva bother?you say u love me is love liddat?isnt love shld b listening and nv criticise.can u tell me haf u eva love me or jus for fun?i reali wna to noe.isit all the things u said are all fake!! i reali dunno.u say u willing to try to kip this family but haf u eva done that.u noes that i love this family v much u noe that and i always wan it to b happy but then u jus cant let me feel yr love for me anymore.wat has happen?i jus feel v v empty nw do u noe?all u noe is listen to yr frens u nv eva wan listen to me.im nt impt to u isit?if yes then i jus gif up since we haf nth left for each other.i love u stil but then i jus cant feel yr love u understand? if one day u reali found a gal who can b gentle and nice and nt like me kip shouting, i will let u go.cuz since u say i cant tok nicely since u say i m nt gentle im bad im lousy and useless.. mayb we jus cant communicate anymore.im reali at the verge of giving up le.nth i do can heal me of my wounds le.im wounded le and very! though i noe wateva i say u also nv listen and reali absorb in yr head.u mus b saying this fucking woman is mad.i noe u are feeling this way nw.haiz anyway gd bye.i dun wan to say further.