save me?

can anyone save me? im feeling so xingku.noe wat sms i received frm my fil?he said that many members ppl wants to help want to see his biz stable so help him and nv expect anyting nt like me.wtf is he toking.i work so hard for wat?i work so hard to support this family to survive he cant even fulfill his promises y mus i kip caring.and dear u nv even understand.all u noe is showing yr perfectionist attitude.i reali cant tk it any longer.i feel like collapse le.im nw feeling so sick but i cant go see doc cuz again he tell me he no pay to gif.its already over fri.i cant tolerate anymore.can anyone save me out frm this anot.ya ppl might tink that gd lei can work frm hm look aft my baby but then they dunno the real pain behind.work but everyday beg beg cant get on time cant paytings sumtimes mus wait till nite then eat which its aft my work.ppl tell me shld i jus go and die and thats it.dear say i always shout but does he noe hw stress i am anot.tings cant pay on time everyting stuck! jus feel like giving up. i cant tk it.