ughhh

ppl yearning for xmas new year occasions.... me too lookingforward but then haiz.. working here i definitely cant make full use of all this occasions.i dunno hw long i can hold on.no welfare nvm no leave no nth... dunno la.ppl might wonder y i stil work on but noone knws the main reason.one ting here the pay is higher than outside.but then i reali cant haf such lifestyle.no enjoyment at all.i reali feel so empty sia.

then nw at this moment its raining.i tink its gg b another NON-STOP paging day for me le.haiz.reali dunno when will i collapse and die sia.so stressful.i noe that every job has its bad points but definitele this place is one of the worse place to work at.

hmmm xmas xmas.... presents gifts wishes... this year i ahf the best present.she is my LITTLE BABY NICOLE!!! this year is the first xmas to celebrate w her and my dear.on this day i also will noe this fren of mine for 8 years le.onli ppl who noes me well will noe who im referring to.anyway happy 8 years noeing... haha... time reali flies... then i was a silly young petite gal nw im a big tummy mummy.lolx.. hmm anyway i reali wish for a beta life as in able to enjoy every occasion w my family without any anger any working on that day any obstacles very sianz always haf to work when ppl is celebrating w their love oes and u only one sitting there paging those stupid calls where noone will answer u.its so irritating and pathetic.i dunno when i will b send to mental hospital cuz of the stress im facing here.dear says im getting worse.. my temper.he understands hw i feel having to suffer and slog liddat. hmmm but then nw i cant leave this place first thats y im feeling so sick~~~~ SICK!!! he tink by employ enuff ppl jus nice means can.ppl dun need go out dun need go toilet dun need to spend time w love ones dun need this dun need that wun fall sick... stupid attitude.anyway forget abt it.i jus hope G0d can show me the way.i jus dunno wat to do.i dunno..... anyway i jus hope im able to haf a surprise on xmas...