two different matters

as wat i haf mentioned in my post title.ive two matters to b shared in my blog.1stly, its abt my baby nicole's bdae celebration.and for the second matter well i shall mention it later in my post.



im kinda excited for tml's celebration cuz i can see many ppl wiling toa ttend my baby's celebration and i can also haf a small gathering w my long lost frens.its like killing two birds w one stone.time reali flies and my little daughter is finally one year old le.and me stil like a kid as usual.heheee.



though me losing an ovary can b such a sad ting for a me as a woman BUT i thank God for creating a miracle.to let me haf this little cute daughter.b4 i had that op i was tols by the doc that i haf very very slim chance to get a baby but God shows me that nth is impossible in his name.

SO i will always treasure my little one and giv her the best in this world even if i haf to suffer.well ADVANCED HAPPY BDAE TO MY LITTLE ADORAABLE DARLING NICOLE.

ytd my mum's side celebrated for her.its jus a little mini gathering.she has a very beautiful cake.wat a lucky gal.does it looks delicious and sweet.esp to me such a greddy person like me oops!!! =p

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well i shall nt say much but share the second part of my blog.

im feeling kinda disappointed w myself.i jus feel i nv move on and i haf been creating more probs for myself to handle y isit lidat.i reali wish to mvoe on but im nt given a chance or shld i say a breathing space.every now and then im facing so much probs stress pressure.y ppl can jus condemn u scold u but when u dun move on they blame u when they are the ones who causes that trauma in u.i feeling so crushed so traumatised now.im facing alot of stress and pressure inside of me now.i jus dunno wat to do.i feel like giving up.my dear always say we mus move on move on but its not easy at all.thpugh like wat i mention, nth is impossble w God but y for this matter God dun show me the way.i always belive in order for a person to move on.the way is to stop saying abt the past abt wat the person done in the past BUT.................. too bad im being treated to face all this.is this fair to me anot.can everyone jus giv me a break.stop pressurising me?

my family dun understand me they tot by scolding by cursing by saying the past it will help me grow but in fact they are destroying me.i feel so sick now.at this moment i jus feel like jus giving up and leave everyone.can anyone tell me y am i feeling this way?