time

viewing my frens' facebook accounts, blogs, i realise time passes so fast.everyone has grown up.all the gals became so beautiful so trendy.the guys grown so tall so are like hunks and sum stil the same.but life seemed so much beta for them.as for me i feel the only difference i haf is im married and grown fatter abit compare w the past.i feel that im like so outdated and seems to haf lesser frens now than b4.sumtimes i wonder wats happening to my life.i used to hang out alot w my frens but now no.sum of my frens did mention to me that i always dun go out w them wheneva they ask me out but actually they dunno the real reason.im broke i cant even use the least $ i haf cuz its for my survival and my child.call me a useless woman but then i guess this is the sacrifice i can do for my family.seeing my frens all looking so great i feel so inferior of myself.i dun seemed to noe wats the style now.i feel so obit (old fashion). i wan to b pretty and attractive but then i kip feeling that i cant do it.hubby always tell me i can do it. he always encourage me telling me that i haf a pair of nice long legs which he admire even till now.but then i guess mayb i wan to haf sumting else.i wan haf a pretty face.sumtimes i jus hate myself.*urghh**mayb i mus reali b contented w wat i haf.looks is definitely not the most impt ting in life.well probably cuz the way sum of my fren treated me that makes me tink this way.im poor, stupid and dun haf the looks.i guess i shld b contented.. i need to put this in my mind whereeva i go.**stop looking down on myself** time will prove everyting.but i count myself lucky.i haf a hubby who loves me for who i am.