~i wan to change~

~i wan to change~

I wan to change.i wan a sec chance for our marriage cuz i can feel that dear reali tries his best.its me who kip hurting him.i feel so bad so sad nw.he told me his tears kip dropping.i reali dun mean to hurt dear this way.im sorry dear.pls forgive me which i noe u haf always do.i reali wan to change will u gif me the time the patience?dear i reali love u jus that im v stubborn.all that i haf said in the sms are jus rubbish.u shld noe me that i always let anger get the beta of me.but i reali wan to change.i can see all my frens wanting to change for their partner.im such a failure cant even do sumting for dear to make him happy.i reali feel so remorseful.

he has given me too many chances so i wun ask for one nw cuz he has done his part le.anyway aft so much pondering i realised that i stil love him.i wan build our family tgt.i dun expect him to forgive me but i jus wan him to b happy.

~rental flat~

i went to view the rental flat at clementi w dear.its look nice to me cosy.we wanted to choose that unit but then we gt to see on wed whether gt choose already anot.hope that place is meant for us.aft viewing , we went downstairs to haf a tok but end up quarrelling cuz of me.haiz.i reali dun wan this to happen but i jus cant control my temper.like wat elene says.i beta control mine or else v jialet de.can we make it once more?i reali dunno.its up to dear whether he will gif me another chance.where's my brain!!! where can i find sumone who willing to marry me even when im pregnant.haiz.y am i so stubborn.i noe if im gg lose him means gone le.i always tell him even i lose him also liddat but actually deep inside my heart i feel scared to lose him.jus that i wan face wan pride.. useless tinking!!

~advice~

i noe im nt in any position to advise anyone nw cuz me myself nt stable and me myself is bad.hmm but to those ppl out there i jus wan say that if u all doesnt love sumone do nt b w that person.firstly u will hurt the person u yrself will b guilty and many many more.i always rem this phrase [REAP WAT U SOW].

if we do nt wan our love ones to hurt us we cant hurt them or anyone cuz in times to cum we will get back.i belive in this.rem do nt make use of others.

but for my case i love dear and i nv cheat him b4.cuz i noe he is the one! i love u dear!