** why**

Why? this is the question i always ask.WHY? hmm we haf gone thru alot quarreling fighting this days and i reali dunno hw to handle it.who is at fault we cant blame anyone but on ourselves!

his family always wans to decide tings for us or shld i say kip wan to tk charge of everyting jus like my family.wats this?i dun agree.they nv tot for my feelings jus suggest wateva they like wateva they wan.im nt as wicked as they tink.i dun mind his dad staying w us at our rental flat but then at least his family shld so call let me b there and discuss tgt.they onli noe hw to arrange things for ppl.

he is my dad in law , hw can i b so cruel to do this to him.moreover he is sumhw closer to me than my mum in law.

this is one of the issue that we quarrelled abt.

there are many more issues.sumtimes i feel that dear nv tink properly as an adult.and he treat it as its my fault i shld admit it.this is nt the way.we cant make excuses for the wrong we done.anyway enuf said.

y everytime when i reach to the verge of breaking up he will cum and salvage it?
isit true that he is reali the one?

he says he wan save it but y the first place u do certain tings.hmm..
u tink im nt heart pain kip fighting w him ma.and where's the cheerful kind gentle me.where haf i done.i reali gt to find back myself.i miss my old self who is the best sotong gal.

this aftnoon i sms everyone.tw,pk,jh,pL and etc saying that me and andre cant le.cuz at that moment i reali cant handle it.hmm onli pk and pl replied.pk told me its irresponsible of me to say die jus liddat cuz that verge i reali tot of jus ending it cuz i jus feel so unwanted so unloved.upon read her sms i realised that ya if i die my daughter hw?y i nv tink of that.hmm so i told myself jus relax.

pl replied almost the same.she said we choose the men we shld b prepared to bear wateva that cums.i used to ve tolerance but dunno y it has been gone.i dunno y.i love him but then i jus can tk it at times.i wish to change or infact go back to the times when im so kind so gentle.i wan to b the perfect wife and mother of andre quek and nicole quek.can it b done?hmm..

dear wan me to post on blog on wat we both promise each other.

if i eva committed wrong [the ones he mention] then i gt to do wat he wans me to do whether i like anot same goes to him.

will we b able to kip it?

we shall see but i will kip trying.

anyway wed we will b getting our rental flat.hope evryting goes well.