Fate OR own hands

Do u belive that everyting that happens in yr life is fated (GOD's will) or in yr own hands?
if u wud asked me i will tell u that im also kinda confused abt this.
kinda contradicting i feel.If its fated then y GOD is being so unfair to certain ppl?Y sum can be born w a sliver spoon whereas some haf to suffer poverty, discrimination etc for the rest of their lives?

My hubby always haf this mentality that our lives is in our own hands.we can choose our lives ourselves, its onli whether we want to anot.well, there is no RIGHT or WRONG though.BUT for me, i wud belive that everyting is in GOD's HANDS (FATE).

in my story, i feel that its reali purely fate and that GOD is reali working thru tings and helping me.ITS GOD"S WILL.and strongly making me belive that everyting is FATE, GOD's WILL.

around 9 years ago, im supposed to be bonded to KKH as a nurse.everyting was planned well.i found two guarantors for myself and also on the verge of signing the sponsorship but in the end it was not successful.My DAD urged me both aunts not to sign as my guarantor.REASON: He is afraid that i might break bond.

At that time i was very furious w him.bcuz i feel that he dun trust in me at all even though all along im his beloved daughter.i reali went thru alot of hatred and at that point of time, i reali felt very desolate.

and jus after everyting, i actually found out i haf an ovarian cyst in my ovary and doc advised me to remove the cyst cuz its on the verge of turning cancerous.and its jus two mths after my first op i actually went for another op.and this time is to remove my right ovary.imagine me signing bond w the hospital?i guess at that time i might got to break the bind and bring more burden to my family cuz they got to pay back the termination fee.BUT thank GOD he used my dad to stop me frm signing the bond.

not onli this two op that made me realise that GOD is actually opening the path for me.There is actually this grave mistake that i haf made that makes me more sure abt GOD's plans for me & reasons for certain tings.

after the two ops and while i was going thru my prcp(nursing final training), i actually gotten pregnant but went for abortion..and if i were to be bonded to the hospital, wont i reali cause alot trouble to my family to handle?Y do i say so? its bcuz 90 percent u will be terminated from the hospital if u are pregnant cuz it disrupts the whole plan, whole contract.

FAte actually saves me from alot tings.If i were to sign the bond & get two other guarantors (DO THINGS IN MY OWN HANDS), i might get into trouble.we as humans will make mistakes but w GOD's grace, we can prevent it.

Mentioning abt abortion, i guess most of my frens doesnt noe abt it.it has been hidden for many years and i guess tis time for me to reveal it bcuz not onli i will feel beta, another ting i can give advice to others who wanting to go thru this stage.NV GO FOR ABORTION.it not onli hurt the baby during the process, it will actually hurt yr psychological aspect.its not a easy ting to go thru.

cuz of wat i did the few years back, i actually hate the fact of ppl having sex already then get preggy and abort the child.A child is GOD's gift.we shd treasure it rather than destroy it.im lucky bcuz my hubby stil stay w me though we haf aborted the first child.some guys will haf already run off after getting u to abort the child SO always tink b4 u do anyting.it will affect u for the rest of yr lives.

wheneva u feel that u cant make any rite decision, always seek GOD.PRAY.and he will give u an answer.

im feeling very down today, but then i noe GOD is creating a miracle for me.all i haf to do is nv give up and pray.persevere. :)